Family or Friend?

Family or Friend? Blood or Water?

I read something last summer where someone was discussing family versus friends. They said that family was limited, that once you they were gone then that was it. They also said that family is there for you no matter what, because, well, they are your family. In comparison, they said friends are special and hard to come by, that is a real friend, true friend. They said this type of friend doesn’t come by often. That this friend will let you get away with stuff and put up with your antics. But a friend is there by choice, they have no obligation to you, after all, they are not “family”. They believe that this kind of friendship is something that needs work to maintain.

Now I offer you a wrench into this theory. Where does a spouse fit in this? Are they family or friend? Some say family and best friend. They are not "blood"....so, if family is suppose to be there no matter what…what happens if that union doesn’t work? Then what? Again, are they family or friend? Was it that they started as friend, moved to best friend, becomes family… something happens and they are no longer married…what "category" does the spouse move to? Are they listed in some weird limbo, cause by their definition, they don’t fit into either of those? If family will be there no matter what, and friends are there for you but not by obligation, then what happens if you are no longer Mr. and Mrs.? I don’t know if what I am saying makes sense but it was something that has needling with me since I read it.

Hello August

Hello August!

Wow, can you believe that it is August already? Where does the year go? There is so much I want to do but then time just gets away from me. I was thinking of getting a new hobby? Now the question is what do I do? I have a few ideas but I am not sure. I think I will have to search the Internet and see what there is in my area. Maybe see what kind of classes are in my area. I am not sure what it is I want to do so that is why I want to see what is out there.

Earlier this year my husband and I were taking two-step classes. It was alot of fun and it was something we could do together. We both would like to do it again. I think maybe after our Vegas trip coming up we can look into it.

I am also looking forward to football season - high school football that is!! Our school (that is the school my son attends) has a tailgating club. We saw it last year and were thinking of looking into this year. We think it is part of the booster club. We had a lot of fun last year. It also was fun when his school played my alma mater. I had to sing along when they did the fight song, of course it embarrassed my son. (a mom perk!! Ha!!)

The "other" woman...

Marnie F. Do YOU know how much YOU have hurt me? The thing is "I" probably have never crossed your mind. It probably doesn't even bother you. You go on with you daily life and it never crosses your mind the fall out of your actions. Yes I know what he did was wrong but you are just as guilty! You made a choice to flirt with him. You knew he was married. You also made the choice to as you put it "to go that extra step"... Your choice. Did you not think about what you were doing to me... to my son?! It doesn't matter what he was telling you or how much he "thought" he was unhappy, it didn't change the FACT that he was still MARRIED!! What kind of morals do you have? The lines he was feeding you, the games you were playing, the surreal environment you all were living in, the drinking and partying, it still doesn't negate the fact that you did something terribly wrong! Yes, you hurt me and you hurt my son. So, Marnie, do you even care? Does it even bother you? I know you were so upset about "your private affairs" being posted on his blog. How you felt that your life was being sold to the tabloids. Sure that hurt you but I can assure you that it wasn't even remotely close to the hurt you caused me. Again I know he is guilty too, I am not dismissing that. But it took two and you were willing and able. Marnie, how do you feel about it? Do you have any shame? I know you don't want your friends and family to know that you were the other woman or the actives you engaged in. Are you sorry for your actions? Are you only sorry for yourself because what others might think... are you ever sorry that YOU hurt ME?!!

Invisible

Am I invisible? Sometimes I feel like I am invisible. The ironic thing is that I can feel invisible in front of you. I know you see me; I can hear you speak to me. But do you really see me. I feel like there is always an excuse why you can't spend couple time with me. We were supposed to go out last night but I guess it wasn't as important to you. Sure I could have reminded you but I want you to remember on your own. I want it to be significant enough for you that you will remember on your own. Maybe I am making this bigger then it is. It is just how I feel right now. You have taken a piece of me away by hurting me so. I think you need to work harder to make me feel wanted. I don't want to be your roommate; I want to be your wife. See me, appreciate me, make me feel like I am your one and only! (I know you are trying and we are working on it, it will take time.)

Follow up

Went to the doctor yesterday for my follow up appointment. The doctor said my lungs sound much better. I went two weeks ago and I gained five pounds in two weeks. Well that doesn't make a girl happy. It's probably the Advair I am taking... it's a steroid. The doctor said that my lungs sound good and that I can move from twice a day puffs to once a day. I hope that will stop the weight gain. Also since my breathing is better I can ease back into an exercise program. I go back in a month for a follow-up. I also have my ENT appointment next week.

Intergrity?!!

What happened to a person’s integrity?!! I went shopping on Sunday and someone stole my phone. I had my phone and then it was gone. I was hoping it was just lost. Called my phone; no one answered. I also texted my phone and offered a reward for the return of my phone. I went back to the store and search for it and asked customer service... Nothing! When I got home I logged onto the carrier's website and saw that a bunch of calls were made to Mexico. The stupid idiot didn't even dial some of the numbers right. You have to dial the country code... Dumba$$!!! Well I had my phone replaced. Unfortunately the phone I have was unavailable so they gave me an alternate. It came yesterday. I like my old phone better. I have to get used to this one. The thing I am most upset is the loss of photos and videos. It was one of those things... I really need to upload these and never got around to it. Now I will be more mindful of keeping up with that. But I still can't believe the lack of integrity some people have.

Back to normal

Back to normal... I feel all messed up. I would really just love to get back to normal. I am so tired mentally and physically. My allergies and asthma have been so bad recently. I have been taking my rescue inhaler multiple times a day. *frowns*. I can't exercise because I can't breath. Went to the doctor's and they gave me Advair. Have to take that twice a day. I've been doing that now for a week and a half. Mind you, I have forgotten a dosage here and there but have taken it at least once a day on those days I have forgotten. This stuff makes me so sleepy in the afternoon... At least I think it is this stuff!! I have to see the ENT about my sinuses, deviated septum, and polyps. Should have this fixed a few years back when I found out about it but I didn't. Guess I was a bit scared to go under the knife. I am committing to getting it done this year. I think it will be helpful in my breathing - that's what the doctor is telling me. Maybe that will help me go back to feeling normal. Well, it would be a start.